So Little Time...

This semester has been, thus far, HECTIC. That is the only word I can think of to desribe it. I feel like I barely have time to breathe, let alone update my BLOG. Goodness. But I will do my best to catch up...where to begin...

Beign back in DC is both awesome and crappy. Awesome because I love living in the city and seeing my friends I didn't see last semester, but crappy because I am busier than I have ever been, and I don't know if I can go at the pace for 2.5 more months! I am taking 16 credit hours of class, plus a 3 hour lab every week, plus 15.5 hours of work, plus APO...which, I know for some people, is, like, nohting...but I am definitely not one of those people.

I have been trying hard to keep things in perspective, but it isn't as easy as I thought it would be. After being in Ireland, I have realized that it is pointless to spend your life being unhappy, and I have become quite the little life cheerleader, in that I think that life is short so you should do things that make you happy (i mean as long as you aren't hurting anyone or whatever...you know, standard stuff). Yet, I find myself being a hypocrite, as this semester is not really allowing me the chance to do things to make me happy.

Of course, APO is a good outlet. Though stressful at times, I really love going to meetings and seeing my friends there, because they are so funny and goofy and make me smile. And the service events thus far have been awesome. But with my courseload, I find myself sacraficing APO events to study, sacraficing studying to sleep, and sacraficing sleep to work...it's like a crazy non-sensicle cycle.

My goal for Lent was to become more positive, but from the looks of this post, it is not going so well so far. I'm trying, really. At the end of each day, I write down three things that made me happy that day. Some of them are obvious, like getting a good grade on a test, but other ones are little, like seeing someone help another person on the Metro. I know it's cliche, but at this point I will take what I can get in terms of making me smile.

I'm hoping that as Lent goes on, and I am able to focus a little more, I will become more positive. This semester has made me so short tempered; I find myself getting so impatient with random people I don't even know, doing random things that have nothing to do with me, in reality. The girl that sits in lecture tapping her pen on her desk would normally just bug me a little; this semester, it sends my blood pressure sky rocketing. My professor's loud voice would usually just piss me off; this semester, it makes me want to cry and hyperventilate. I am trying to take deep breaths and put things in perspective now, because I think that will make me happier and far less stressed in the end. Yeah, my professor's yelling is obnoxious, but in the end, I only have to listen to her for 2.5 hours each week, and that's it.

Ok this post has dragged on and on...clearly I need to be quiet. Hopefully the next post will be more positive as I try to chill out, and I will have happier things to report. :) Until then, just gotta keep plugging away...the semester has to end sometime, right?